Not the way i want to end my day 7/4/2010

Yes you will see this in Facebook as well. No mistake. I decided to shoot here instead of there coz the status box has limited character space.

I must re-iterate myself that i am a person (which u cant possibly change) who hates last minute changes to already set appointments/schedules/plannings/work/play etc. It really throws me off balance and i can easily get frustrated. (We all have our own pet peeves dont we?). When i plan something to do and its set with ready plan to be carried out in advance i shall see it till the day that is supposed to be carried out that NOTHING tries to shift it. I keep to my word as best as i can especially when it involves important things or other people.

I had almost half a day of nearly free time in the office doing nothing but fiddling around wit the new alarm system today which is just computer clicks and button pressing. Work ends at 6pm sharp. Now why did boss have to give me extra work to do when its chow time when he could have given me earlier?? Last minute. And if he wanted to give me....he could have at least told me in advance to prepare.

Now why am i upset? Maybe you guessed : I have an appointment after work. Yes. I was suppose to coach a new student at 7.30pm. And knowing KL this is a bad time to be doing things. Which is why i was ready to run out the door at 6pm sharp. OK FINE. So boss got me to do work. K nevermind. I will do it as fast as i can. What can be so tough just to print some AutoCAD drawings?

Fark this printing system that it chooses today of all days and of all times to have errors in printing and now i have to find out how to print 20 drawings in A3 size before i leave. Remember. KL. 6pm. 7.30pm. Not much time. And though its just from PJ to Subang...........this is PJ TO SUBANG here. Not Sitiawan to Seri Manjung. Its different. Cancle the appointment? No way.

And with this printing problem i have no choice to print out in A4 with one printer and then enlarge to A3 on the photocopy. 20 drawings. Each have to set page by page print settings..........why? Coz today the whole thing just seemed messed up when other times i have no problems. Yea..........shit happens at work. No surprise.

Its now 7pm and im still not done. I called to RE-Arrange to 8pm. Thank God my student was understanding enough. So now im rushing like mad to get the job done. And in the process i : Made countless printing blunders, not go to toilet when i have to coz i want to finish this first, had to think how to pass SJ jams. I didnt care i just printed out everything. Photocopy, chucked to my boss. And get the hell out by 7.30pm. Ok maybe i can be on time. WRONG

Housing area also got traffic jam. Ever hear that before? Yes im sure you have. Jam as in i moved 100 meters in 5 minutes. 8pm im still thinking. now its 7.45. Shit shit shit. And then my student calls. He cant make it as his car has mechanical failure. Im not breathing sigh of relief here. Im even more annoyed that he cant make it. IF it was done on schedule it probably will be fine. Now im in a jam, he is stuck in the middle of the road. So what do i get in the end? Cincai printing work for my boss, stuck in a jam in a housing area, my student in trouble himself, me not eating at all since lunch, my patience running low, my wasted planning, his wasted time. Shall i continue? So who's to blame? I dont blame God. Boss? I duno. Jam? I duno. Printer? I duno. Computer? I duno. Time? I duno. Myself? I duno.

Yeah now you all will be telling me chill chill take a chill pill, ask God for patience kindness gentleness self control, you will be telling me shit happens, you will be telling thats normal part of life, dont be so hard on yourself, and every other single consolidating assuring calming word from my fellow friends pastors and family members would be soon on the way here.

Im dedicated when i want to do the thing i love/like the most. And i dont think its an excuse to postpone appointments actually due to small reasons like office work overtime etc.

Fine then so after me making all this hoopla public to read and laugh or shake heads, you all might be asking me to do one thing : Suck it in, grow up and shut up. Maybe thats what i will do. If you hate this job tat makes u so pissed all the time then why not just quit. Maybe thats what i will do.

Bye