Goodness me i cant believe its been more than 1 month from my last post and i feel that i just posted the last post only yesterday (what a cliche).
But seriously.......work has its toll on the working ppl. Now i realize this. I literally almost have no time for myself even. So is that the ultimate sacrifice every working adult must pay? I disagree honestly. Into my current job, it has been a learning experience no doubt. But the past one month has really been a whole month of deep thought : "Is this really what i want to do?"
A mechanical engineer like me doing an IT + E&E engineer's job is like fish out of water. But this fish has to stay alive an learn how to breathe somehow. But its a rough time for the fish. Amphibians have the last laugh i guess.
Job happiness, job motivation, job fulfillment. All these i see key to an employee's tenure in a company. I guess my rating for each of the category is well below 30%. I just dont see it as my career or my life for that matter. Id even probably be happier selling my home made hotdogs by the road side. So what now? Change? Stay on? Stay on and force to be the fish out of water and keep being miserable or hop back into the sea? Or should i say hop into ANOTHER sea. A different sea.
In a life now where everyone is running this long tiring tight squeezing crushing rat race to survive, only those at the very highest position in the hierarchy will survive. My current job has only taken my to one type of place in particular : Rich people's houses. And its not just rich.........its filthy rich people. But i didnt feel envious nor do i dream of such luxury. Its just not that practical to me to live in a 4 storey house with a lift. Or a house with complicated yet always problematic automated light switching and bothersome networkings. Ive learned, wealth isnt wat i want. Its LIFE that i want. And life is not just confined to a 9-6 job or sitting in a bungalow with 70+ alarm sensors and 10 cctv's monitoring just one house. Thats like the ultimate show of insecurity.....or rather the obsessiveness of security. After working and seeing all this myself, i rather live life simple but full of colour, rather than complicated but monochrome.
Does my job promise security? Nope. Do i promise myself security? nope. God does. He promised. If He went back on His word id be dead meat by now. A goner.
Passion to one may to others seem as a sacrifice because they do not share the same feeling for the same subject.
And i intend to live life with passion.
